Why...?

There's a lot of things running through my mind today, well.. for the last few days, actually. Most of them are really annoying, but I'm still going to say them even though it seems like no one reads this and I'm just basically wasting my time talking to myself on a webpage that no one even reads :\. Anyways... this could turn out to be horribally long, so good luck to those who read it all the way through. I'll put it in sections.



Stories



I've been thinking a lot about my stories that I've started but never finished. I have a tendency, being a 100% blood Gemini, that I don't finish them. Even now, three or fours later, I still know what I want to happen, but just don't want to write them. I think it went from The Kid Named Lafter and the Weird World and Life or Death: Hidden Murder of Zak to Elementalist and The Paths of Destiny because I was going through a phase. My first few stories were for fun, nothing but small sparks in my idealistic head that I put on paper. My more recent stories, expecially Elementalist and TWO and The Twins of Light and Dark have more of my feelings in them, like my stress, anger, feelings. I really DO want certain stories published, Elementalist and The Legendary Elementalist, mostly because I really DID work like.. 2-4 months on each, and they're semi-good, I guess, and I usually don't like my stories- at all. Bleh.



Future



I'm questioning whether or not I'm actually ready for what I want in the future. I keep questioning myself if I'm really good enough to fullfil what I want to be... I know it's if-fy at what I want, and that it's bascially impossible for to even want to do more than that, but I've been saying it since I could talk and I'm still going to stay with it. You know, kids change their mind as they get older? I break that pattern. I've ALWAYS said I was going to be the doctor, not A doctor but THE Doctor- the best female doctor in the world. Pff, as if. I don't even think I'll be able to pass College, notherless be the world's greatest doctor. But, I didn't really break that pattern because the more I grew up and started to become more curious about other stuff, I learned that I wanted to become a well-known author, a world traveler, and maybe have my own band- but my favourite one that I wanted was to become a doctor. I don't think I'll ever be any of those.


Past


I've been writing something while I go through my insomnia periods, and it's on Mibba.com, but it's not anything unusual. It's just a 3 chapter story at the moment, taken the place around Jayden Dowen, and his family. Jayden has six sons- three adopted, three born to him- and each play their own role in the story. But, anyways, Jayden's youngest son, Allen, has a stuffed pig, and he carries it around everywhere. Here's a snippet:

Allen nodded, and sniffled. Jayden hugged his son, "Would you like to sleep with Daddy tonight?" Allen nodded, again, and picked up his pig stuffed animal. Jayden picked his son up, and carried him out, turning the light off and shutting the door on the way back.
As Jayden walked back to his master bedroom, Allen put his head on his shoulder and fell back to sleep, holding onto his pig for dear life. Jayden placed Allen between him and Madison, and slipped in after him, and was out as fast as his son was.

Later in the story (in chapter three)

"Fine, fine," Jayden gave up and looked at the time, "I need to leave in like... five minutes. Boys," he turned to his youngest sons, "ready?"
"Oinky says he's ready, Daddy!" Allen said, holding up his stuffed animal pig.
Jayden smiled."Okay, Oinky is ready. What about Growly, Seb?"
"He's ready, Daddy," Seb answered after shuffling in his seat.

This really reminds me of when I was little, because I had my own stuffed animal (hell, I still do) and I used to have to bring him EVERYWHERE I went.. I think I even took him to school until I got the fear of fire-drills and that they weren't real fire-drills... it's kind of depressing.



There's more but I won't bore you with all the details (sighs).

Did I hear a surprise?!

Did you? Did you?! DID YOU!? I wouldn't know -*sticks her tongue out mockingly.*-



Well, I'd tell you the surprise... but then it wouldn't be a surprise, now would it? XDXD.

But, I'll give you a hint. It involves this VERY Blog that you come on *insert the # of times you come here*. Yes, it does. No, I'm not telling.

It may in fact change your life, and you know what. I'm doing it because I'm BORED with this. So I'm going to make it pretty. Oh well for you >:P.



OKAY So you found out. I'm done with the biggest part of my addition, and if you HAVE SOUND THATS ON AND WORKING YOU CAN PROBABLY HEAR IT. That list isn't done, but it's a good amount (about 15-20 songs) to start :).

My Brain went onto Overload

I'm addicted to two things: Kelley Armstrong's Stolen and my own story, The Paths of Destiny. It's a sad thing, actually. I started Stolen yesterday at around 10:30 AM, read until 4:30 PM and took a fast break to know how far I was. I was about 25% through the book, which is good seeing as I take FOREVER to read books. So, by 8:30 PM, I was reading, again, seeing as I was bored out of my freaking mind.

I also had a brilliant idea. This author was inducing me with leathal amounts of her writing, that was now starting to spark my head itself. Observe (btw, this is Elena Michael's point of veiw XD):

Four walls. Three taupe. The fourth mirrored. One-way glass. Lovely. By my feet, a bathroom. I could tell it was a bathroom because I could see the toilet, not through the door, but through the front wall, which was clear glass. (K. Armstrong; p 121)

Later in the book it says Elena is tied to a chair with arm restraints and leg irons- of course with me knowing all the stuff I did, I forget easily. Which was my next task: Re-figure out what Leg irons were.

So there I was, on Wikipedia, lil' Chelsea-weaslea doing research on something she already knew about. But I wanted to be SURE so that when, and probably later, I reread the book for more inspiration, I don't have to do it again. While on the page, I scrolled all the way down to the bottom and guess what I see. I see something about "Physical Restraints". Even though most of them are for BDMS stuff (like I'm ever going to do that) I'm still using them for my story. Well... some. Not all. Only a few. xD.

While I was taking my research-ing break, I decided, "Hey, Smart ass! Seeing as Armstrong is giving you ideas, take it! Look up torture! And Medical equipment!" so I did. xD.

Hey, at least I'm doing research rather than asking people what they thinkg, Right? XD

Anyways, moving on. So, after that I read some more, and then was online for like... 30 minutes, and then layed in bed and pondered, "Cory and Angela... Alice... Cooper and Robert...." and guess what.. I had also found a long list of "potential" bad stuff: Homicidal names and everything related to that. One of them I took in a keen interest, too. Consensual Homicide. Consensual Homicide is where someone admits he/she wants to die, and therefore someone kills them. So... I found out something about myself: Willow Sorsha likes to do Consensual Homicide. *Sentence spoiler!!!* I say this because Robert, who is screaming at his dead brother's ghost, admits he wants to die.

I think Willow Sorsha is getting eviler every time I write about him :\.

Anyways, yes. The Paths of Destiny is getting very.... long. On paper, it's about 55 pages, and 21 chapters, changing between One of the six kids, or Willow Sorsha himself. There's a lot of flaws in what is what, but even so, it's still a good book. In fact, I might even put it on MIBBA xD XD.

End of Story. :)

Shoot me before I go crazy.

For over a week I've been having a pounding headache, that would result in being on, which wasn't that bad. A few minutes to space out and relax and then go back to whatever I was doing, would stop it, and it being off. But on Wednesday, I was really feeling like shit- the headache decided to come back and hit like there was 500 drills going through my head. I managed Study Hall, but by the end of it I was freezing my ass off, even though BA is heated in the cooler months and ACed in the warmer months, and I had my sweater on. Hell, I couldn't even hold my PENCIL, and I had to write all day. So I decided to go to the Nurse during (erm.. before?) Science class. Of course, I left my books there and was at the Nurse's office for a whole 49 (maybe more) minutes. Ugh. And talk about bad: I had my English homework, science textbook/bindor, AND MY NEW STORY there. I had Science homework, too, and Mr. N, kinda yelled at me (hey, not my fault I couldn't find my Science Teacher). Bleh. I made it through that class, too, but I was still feeling shitty. I wandered over to (yes, I'll admit this) one of my favourite teachers, again: Madam Fox. I told her that my Science Teacher had my homework notebook and everything, and that I wasn't feeling well, so when the rest of the class was sharing, and after about 4 people went, she let me go look for the science teacher, again. Bleh. Still no luck. I STILL couldn't find him. Soo, when I came back I got my books, and again went to the Nurse's office. This time I got to go home.

The going home part was good, because by the time my momster got there, my head was seriously pounding like another 200 drills added to those 500 first ones. I took some motrin and passed out for a good, oh god, maybe three hours? XD. Then I read Bitten some more, I got maybe through 150 pages in about 2 hours *mind you it took some time reading because I was forcing myself to get rid of the pain*. Hah. I was totally lucky that Wednesday was Open House at my school, so I told my momster to get my science stuff for me. She did, which was good because I had homework to catch up on *cough science cough*, and I really didn't like leaving my story, The Paths of Destiny at school, seeing as I have a constant fear of the school burning down during random fire drills. :\.

Yes, so what? I have a constant fear of my stories being burned up. Actually, I don't. It's the fact that I didn't finish it that's the problem. Screw Life of Death: Hidden Murder of Zak and Elementalist and The Legendary Elementalist. Those were done, I really could care less if they shoot into a ball of flame and smoke and wither on the ground. I have that urge that once I start something I either a) forget about it, or b) finish it, and I intend on finishing The Paths of Destiny.

Anyways, moving along. I also learned some stuff after my mom came home from Open House. Like, the kid that I liked was there and kept looking at her, probably wondering between two things: 1, was Froggy okay? and 2, Where IS Froggy...?!. Anyways, moving on.

Thursday was just as bad. Besides waking up from a pounding headache and waking up over a set period of time during the night made me all bleh, so I stayed home. I slept or read more of my book, and just chilling. I guess I watched the HISTORY CHANNEL, too. It had some Sadistic/Satanism/Torture thing on the TV.. gave me ideas for The Paths Of Destiny. That's one thing I didn't do this day: write.

Today is also the day where I my tummy starts to give away and my food is forced down, as well as forced to STAY down. It's also the day where I can't sleep well, well. On Wednesday it was hard, but I managed. Thursday I had problems.

Friday, erm.. today, I woke up with the headache. AGAIN. And now my tummy hurt. I didn't eat ANYTHING really *A cheese stick and A Jello* until dinner, where I forced myself to eat and forced it to stay down. I finished my first book, Bitten By Kelley Armstrong, and so started the one my mom was reading, Stolen. They're actually really really awesome books, and the main character, Elena Michaels, reminds me of Verdi in the 2nd book, but not the first. Maybe it's all those funny things I know of Verdi and that it seems like she'd say... :\

Anyways, I started to write more, just recently. The 10-20 hours of reading this week tended to be... WAYY too much. Blehgerness. Anyways -*pokes Ricci cause she knows Riccis gunna read this*- Poke YOUR IT! XD

-*giggles and waves byes before running back to writing and talking with her Love on YIM.*-

A Short ass Fill In

Okay, seeing as Mrs. Spam Loving Smeller wants me to 'update my blog for love's sake' here it is :P.

Anyways, school started last week? I forgot already *rofl*.. but yeah. School's fun, I guess. I have Study Hall 1st Per every day except Tuesday, where I have Bio lab. Ooh- schedual is this:

Per 1- Study Hall
Per 1- Bio Lab (Tuesdays)
Per 1- PE (M,W, Thurs Semester 2)
Per 2- Biology
Per 3- English (my teacher is freaking AWESOME at MAGIC! XD)
Per 4- French (w00t for Madam Fox again!)
Per 5- Choir (w00t for Kerr!)
Per 6- Geometry
Per 7- India/Southeast Asia
Per 7- China/Japan/Korea (Sec. semester)

Yeah! XD w00t! XD

Um, anyways, nothing much happened at school. Um... I got a new Idea for tPoD! XD \:d/ it sSOOO rocks >:). I love 4 of my classes (Bio, English, French and Choir) and yeah.. anyways.. nothing else (I think) ttyl :D

Oh! Wait!!

I got a new website (and those interested in games that ARE NOT FORUM but more Browswer based will like this!). It's AoA in LoGD (Legend of the Green Dragon) form, kind of like www.hogwartslive.com/ except not hogwarts/Harry Potter Related XD. Info on that, later XD

The Great and Magical BillieJoeIsCool

A Random HL convo that happened :)

Magical BillieJoeIsCool says, "Wanna see a magic trick? I'm an awesome Magicain *in rl, too xD*"
Beastmistress BrookeDavis says, "haha .. depends on the magic trick :P"
Beastmistress BrookeDavis is a horrible magician in rl lol. Magical BillieJoeIsCool says, "I can do the disappearing trick, the amazing walk on thin air or one of two card tricks (one being an unbreakable card castle and the other exploding cards)."
Magical BillieJoeIsCool says, "Or I can stand on my hands and you can try to push me over." Beastmistress BrookeDavis says, "lol oh .. exploding cards?"
Magical BillieJoeIsCool says, "Yep.. exploding cards, they explode and something random appears in their place."
Beastmistress BrookeDavis says, "lol that sounds awesome!"
Magical BillieJoeIsCool says, "So, which one shall I do for you?"
Beastmistress BrookeDavis says, "lol um .. exploding cards."
Beastmistress BrookeDavis says, "lol nice name change btw. "
Magical BillieJoeIsCool nods and snaps her fingers, and her black Disappearing Hat appears, where she then pulls out a deck of cards, fans them out and holds them out to Brooke, Choose one.
Magical BillieJoeIsCool says, "Thanks, too xD."
Beastmistress BrookeDavis laughs and picks out a card from the middle, the queen of hearts.
Magical BillieJoeIsCool puts the rest of the deck on the ground and takes the card from Brooke, Watch. she tosses the card into the air, and in a puff of Pink smoke falls pedals of a flower.
Beastmistress BrookeDavis says, "lol oh .. cool trick. xD"


Nothing more for now xD

What a Buncha BullShit >.<;

Yes, the last few days have kinda be hectic. Very hectic. Well. Let's start on Saturday.

Saturday:
Kay, I rememeber going to Dunkin Donuts for breakfast with my momster and then her yelling at me because I didn't know she bought me two breakfast sandwiches, and then we (momster and I) went to my moms best friends house and just 'hanged'. XD Yeah. Then, when we go to leave, I'm re-reading my notebook story and guess what? The rearview mirror was just dangling. It became unglued. We're still driving without it xD. Annnyways, we drive home and my momster calls my Nana and then we have a discussion about whether or not we should drop me off and then I could walk to my nana's camper and claim I 'walked' there. ^.^. We didn't do it, though (grr). The next thing that happened was we were in the driveway and my mom goes, 'Chelsea, get the mail, will you?' So I get out, and walk over there, and stand and WHAMP!! I'm on the ground- guess what. My ankle that I 'twisted' in Europe gave out. Hurt like freaking hell. >.<;.

Sunday:
We actually WENT to the DOCTORS today for my ankle. I KNEW I didn't twist it in Europe- in fact I sprained it. Ouchies >.<;. I remember not doing anything today.... -*ponders*- yeah, nothing.

Monday:
Nothing ACTUALLY happened today. It was boring :\. Went to grammies and had a dinner thingy and just hangged all day. Very boring.


Now you know what happened during my last weekend of Summer (cry). School starts tomorrow so I dont know how often I'll be able to blog.

The Crazy Little Daemon

So, I made an impression. I used to be the 'Innocent' one of the 3 closest and longest friends (not counting Hexxy) of the people that were older than me, and now I'm number three (3) on Ulric's evil list. That's something because I used to be at the VERY bottom of the evil scale xD.

Yes, this also proved my point because I tortured my friend when she was trying to sleep. I made sure she was all asleep and everything, and I plugged in my guitar, and I whammed on it and she just woke up and looked around, and went back to sleep. Next thing was my 'Snow Inside on Thrusday Night' trick. I ripped up about 3 pieces of tissue stuff and put it against my fan and it fell like snow ALL over Rachel. It was FUNNY. She woke up and was like, "Chelsea?... why are there shredded up tissue stuff in my bed?" I told her it was snow. She just looked confused even more and I just laughed. My mom was confused, too. XD.

Balli Bob says hi, by the way!

Nothing else, happened recently. so nothing else is to blog xD.